Pages of a falling bird

Hmm…they say it’s a simple thing…well, I guess they’re wrong…..they have to be. Because, if it was…I would’ve known. I fell through that window, yes the same window…again and again… not knowing if it was real, not knowing even what the next 5 seconds are going to be like. The very presence of such uncertainty made it feel as if … this was it. Everything thing you’ve ever heard, seen or felt … negates itself so quickly, the after-thoughts don’t even get a chance to evaporate, you start rushing into feelings, the ones you’ve always yearned for. But then, you start wondering, what good have you done to deserve this, why should you suddenly get what you want… is this a setup…a joke… not funny! ... Exhausting every inch of logic in your head… in your heart. But I guess…that’s where you’re making the mistake. There’s no logic in this frame, not in your heart, not in anyone’s heart. But you keep looking… through those endless parallel streets filled with dried leaves and sorry’s and thank you’s, through those empty bottles of emotions… the same ones you once finished celebrating better times and wishing for more… you search through every syllable of sense you’ve ever lived… ever survived… you recall all those nights when you were one ... and all those black and blue promises that you made…the ones you kept… and the ones you left… all those moments when you failed… failed to acknowledge that you have no control…that you are not at the loose end of the string… someone else holds the key to you… you keep looking till you are left with empty hands … and when you have nothing to look for…even after you’ve looked for your reflection in the tear drop that trembled out of your guilty eyes just a few seconds ago … you cant do anything but believe that this is IT. Every moment counts, every action lives. You stop being careful, you say not what you want to say, not what you’re told to, caressed by the clutch of destiny, you pour out your feelings. Each and every second of each and every minute compels you to be you. No longer can you pretend… this is IT.

You’re thinking about love… funny thing is… I never mentioned love.

nascent thoughts

un connecion entre de F.F.copolla y Anu Malik!

(Take care of my usage of the word "get")

kick me if i dont piss u off ! lets start with THE GODFATHER.now the godfather starring Al Pacino(and Marlon Brando,personally i think Pacino(i know...who am i ..."lastnaming"...one of the greatest actors of all time) was a gem in this film)was directed by F.F.coppola whose daughter Sofia made "lost in translation"(which b.t.w. was an abstract go-getter ,according to moi(ATM))which was based in Japan. now when i think of japan,i have to think of "Babel"(which i didnt get.but i still luved it : GO ALEJANDRO! ,if it wasnt for his films i would've never known that a human soul weighs 21 grams(each)!,also i still cant believe that that japanese chick .rinj(k)o kikuchi got an oscar nod!)and when i think of babel...i notice another gem,Gael Garcia Bernal who broke up and (ATM)ALLEGEDLY !is getting back together with Natalie Portman (another gem) who went bald for her role in "V for vendetta",which also starred british actor and EX-BAFTA host Stephen Fry(as dietrich),whose gonna direct a movie based on the life and works of Srinivasan Aiyangar Ramanujan(needless to say.another gem)

hmmm..movie based on the life of a mathematician..now cmon..i have to have to think of "A Beautiful Mind" ,a schizophrenia laced tale garnished with a bit of romance(luved the kissing scene under the stars) about the life of John Nash( nobel laureate etc etc etc)who b.t.w i recently met.....well.....i didnt exactly meet him.....but he did pass by me at a distance of not more that 6 feets! .neways ...jennifer connelly portrayed the role of Mrs. Nash and one of jennifers(hmm..im even "firstnaming" actors!!) best performances(ATM) was in "requiem for a dream"....based on a book of the same name by Hubert Selby Jr.,who also wrote"last exit to brooklyn"(which after reading..i didnt get..but i still luved it).....(and dont ne1 dare point fingers at me for luving things that i dont even get........cuz all you people TOO luved "the matrix" and i can bet a gazillion dollars that you all TOO..didnt get it!)

now where was i......yes ..."requiem for a dream" was directed by Darren Aronofsky who is engaged to Rachel Weisz who won the coveted best supporting actress oscar for "the constant gardener"(based on the novel by the same name written by John Le Carre') last year. now Archie Panjabi played a small role in this movie(Geeta someone!).....remember her!!!....Parminder Nagras big sis in the movie "Bend it like beckham"(another gem)..now the director of this film(Gurinder Chadha,born in Kenya) went on to make the forgettable"Bride and Prejudice" starring AISHWARYA RAI(not just a gem!) and an imported actor Martin Henderson(a kiwi)..now the music of this film was given by Anu Malik.

hmmm....now where have we landed ourselves.....no mans land (if u ask me)...Anu malik ......"dekho baarish ho rahi hai..its raining .its raining.....mera dil ro raha hai..its paining its paining"..........BELIEVE ME...it certainly PAINS me alot to say that.....i've just...right in front of your very eyes...linked F.F.Copolla and Anu Malik!!!!!..........its like being able to find a missing link in human evolution....let it remain MISSING...shall we.!!!